learning freedom :)

wrote this entry a year and a half ago and it's truer than ever today:

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February 6, 2008

I don't feel that deep, deep, WILD sorrow anymore. It's still within me. But it doesn't consume me anymore. I think this is a good thing. I think.

The thing is, I am so in love with God.

I don't think anything or anyone could take that away from me. And that, or should I say He, is my one advantage. My one secret in getting through life.

I am so imperfect. The moments when I fully realize my depravity...it's mindblowing. I pray that you will show me how to pray. How to live. How to be. I am so strong, God, because of You. In many ways, we've made it. We've made it.

Let the battle begin.

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God, in his grace, teaches me the same lessons over and over again and that is exciting (and fortunate) to me