It is possible to come before the Word of God and not listen:
My people come to you, as they usually do, and sit before you to listen to your words, but they do not put them into practice. With their mouths they express devotion, but their hearts are greedy for unjust gain.
(Ezekiel 33:31)
righteous are you, O Lord,
and your laws are right
they are fully trustworthy.
give me understanding
that i may live.
patience is a fruit of the Spirit
and grace is the lifeline of His gospel.
praying for patience and grace because i am wicked wicked wicked on my own.
i am damaged at best,
like you've already figured out
"so that in everything He might have the supremacy..."
Job 37
5 God's voice thunders in marvelous ways;
he does great things beyond our understanding.
6 He says to the snow, 'Fall on the earth,'
and to the rain shower, 'Be a mighty downpour.'
7 So that all men he has made may know his work,
he stops every man from his labor.
J. Christ, you are my sanity and clarity....
It is for freedom that
Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be
burdened again by a yoke of slavery. (Galatians 5:1)
For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" (Romans 8:15)
In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free. (Psalm 118:5)
Listen, my son, and be wise,
and keep your heart on the right path.
There is surely a future hope for you,
and your hope will not be cut off.
wrote this entry a year and a half ago and it's truer than ever today:
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February 6, 2008
I don't feel that deep, deep, WILD sorrow anymore. It's still within me. But it doesn't consume me anymore. I think this is a good thing. I think.
The thing is, I am so in love with God.
I don't think anything or anyone could take that away from me. And that, or should I say He, is my one advantage. My one secret in getting through life.
I am so imperfect. The moments when I fully realize my depravity...it's mindblowing. I pray that you will show me how to pray. How to live. How to be. I am so strong, God, because of You. In many ways, we've made it. We've made it.
Let the battle begin.
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God, in his grace, teaches me the same lessons over and over again and that is exciting (and fortunate) to me
